Turn that horseshoe upside-down, good sir!

I've been trying to figure out why this blog has sucked so incredibly hard the past couple of months. The reason I came up with in an earlier post was that I had no specific "angle" or common thematic structure to the posts to give my blogging a raison d'etre. The sporadic posting and randomness of the topics have in fact given it raison de n'etre rien. Or something like that.

I think a big part of the lackadasical posting has been my job. I work in the allegedly glorious world of Hollywood. First off, right now is a slow time at work with not much going on, and hence, no interesting work-related anecdotes. Secondly, I certainly wouldn't care what some assistant-level minion had to say about their professional world -- positive or negative or otherwise -- so why assume others are interested in this aspect of my life? I'm not even so proud of myself for working in "the biz" as they call it. I can't even stand that goddamned term. The self-centeredness and self-congratulatory masturbation-type atmosphere that pervades around here -- and is in fact embodied by calling it "THE biz" -- annoys the shit out of me. So I'm certainly not going to write about what good friends I've become with what celebrity to impress anyone because, well, aside from the fact that I'm not, even if I was so what? My versions of these stories are less about how comfortable I am around these people and more about how uncomfortable I am.

The opposite end of the spectrum and diametrically opposed to the "look-at-how-cool-I-am" stories are the sarcasm-filled complaining rants. And I'm really good at sarcastically ranting. Except I've found a really nice job amidst the steaming pile of horseshit that is television production, and I couldn't bitch and complain about it even if I wanted to. I was so fed up with the garbage inherent in my old position that my whole perspective on life was tainted. The old position also involved a lot of driving around town, so I was exposed to some weird stuff. Now I sit in an office all day long. And so now I come to the realization as to why this blog sucks.

Unfortunately, I have nothing to complain about. Well, I mean, the exile in an office aspect is there, too, but still.

Hopefully I'll get shot at when I'm driving home tonight.